Dysautonomia-That Awkward Third Wheel
Dysautonomia is like that awkward third person on a date. You don’t really want it to be there, but it insists on hanging out with you. It makes you frequently uncomfortable. Sometimes you can’t even think because of the awkwardness created by brain fog. You want it to go away but it just doesn’t seem to get the message. Dysautonomia is that awkward “third wheel.”
I’m normally a very flexible person. I’m pretty relaxed and it takes a lot to annoy me and put me on edge. I’d prefer the world consist of rainbows and butterflies, but dysautonomia just seems to be begging me to create conflict. For example dysautonomia makes me feel really sensitive to temperature. My roommate enjoys the room at a reasonable 70 degrees, I would agree, but dysautonomia decides to be a Debbie Downer and makes me feel like 70 degrees is the Saharan desert.
The other day I was having a conversation with a cute girl. Now I really wanted to be clever and funny, but dysautonomia was there. I wasn’t feeling my best and had some killer brain fog. The conversation was far from dynamic to say the least. It was like dysautonomia was just hanging out in the room making everyone uncomfortable.
I would love to play sports. Inter tube water polo sounds like the best invention in the history of the world. Now what stops me from signing up with my friends. Oh yea there’s my “best friend” dysautonomia. He’s really clingy and decides that he doesn’t want to do that. He is my best friend though, so I guess I have to be supportive and not participate. I have to go do much less fun leg exercises in the gym, while my buddies have an intense cardio workout in a pool full of inter tubes.
I really wan’t to kick dysautonomia to the curb. Tell it it’s not wanted around and live my life, but it still manages to hang around. Sometimes it takes a lot of work to build up to that point where you can tell someone they aren’t wanted around. I feel like I’m working up to that point and hopefully one day we can all kick that awkward “third wheel” called dysautonomia to the side and live our own lives.
-Tyler
Tags: dysautonomia, postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome
